April 20

I have to wonder.

I have to wonder why I felt that hole again, God. Because I merely skimmed my Bible that morning.

I felt depressed and lonely like I did before it all clicked, God. I needed someone, anyone... you weren't there.

I mean, not with me. Not comforting me.

Is it because I didn't pray and ask? I guess it's my fault.

It's always my fault.

I'm feeling it again.

God, help me to be better to Mick. Help me to treat her the way you want me to treat her.

Help me to stay close to you, God. Or at least help me try.

Help all of us in The Sound of Music. Let us give our best and make it a phenomenal show for your glory. And even if it isn't, use it for your gain.

God, somedays I don't feel like telling you a love you. It's been hollow for too long. I'm still not sure.

But help me anyways...